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Sunday, November 1, 2009
the emergancy prayer
GOD
PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS HURT AND PAIN IM GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW,I HATE FEELING THIS WAY.. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ANY SENSE TO ME ANYMORE.. AND IT GETS A LIL FRUSTRATING AT TIMES BUT I CANT SEEM TO MAINTAIN ANYMORE, AND TEARS I HAVE CRIED SO MUCH I THINK I MUST HAVE RAN OUT OF THEM.. IM BROKEN INTO PIECES AND FRIENDS THE FEW THAT I HAVE KEEP TELLING ME THAT I LOOK LIKE THE STUPID ONE.. BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR SAY ANYMORE..SEEMS LIKE I BEEN CUT OPEN AND THE WOMBS AND SCARS THAT I HAVE ARE TOO OPEN FOR ME TO COVER THEM UP WITH JUST A BANDAGE.. FROM CHILDHOOD TO WOMAN HOOD SEEMS LIKE I DESERVED EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.. IM NOT SAYIN THAT YOU DESERVED TO DIE ON THE CROSS.. IM JUST NOT UNDERSTANDING ANYTHING ANYMORE, AND EVERYTIME I TRY TO UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS END UP BEING HURT. IM TIRED OF HURTING, I DONT WANT TO HURT ANYMORE.. WELL U HAVE BEEN HURT BEFORE SO YOU KNOW HOW PAIN FEELS. IT GETS TO THE POINT WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP.. BECAUSE NOW A DAYS JUST BEING STRONG DOES NOT SEEM TO BE ENOUGH FOR ME ANYMORE.. I KNOW IVE MADE MISTAKES IN THE PAST AND I MAKE MISTAKES NOW ONLY U KNOW HOW MANY MISTAKES I WLL MAKE IN THE FUTURE.. I JUST WANT TO ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME AND I HOPE THAT YOU WILL HEAR ME OUT.. I KNOW I GET MYSELF INTO THE STUPIDITY I GET INTO AND GO TO YOU TO GET ME OUT OF THE STUPIDNESS ALL THE TIME.. I REALLY HOPE U HEAR ME OUT BECAUSE THIS TIME IS NO DIFFERENT THAN THE PAST NOR THE PRESENT.. THIS TIME IS MORE THAN ME JUST CRYING OUT TO YOU FOR HELP MORE THAN ME PLEADING FOR A BLESSING AND ASKING YOU FOR A BEAUTIFUL MERCY UPON ME.. IF I DIDNT KNOW BEFORE I KNOW NOW MORE THAN EVER THAT I NEED YOU TO STAY WITH ME BY MY SIDE ***SIGH**
:*(
SOLSKY
PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS HURT AND PAIN IM GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW,I HATE FEELING THIS WAY.. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ANY SENSE TO ME ANYMORE.. AND IT GETS A LIL FRUSTRATING AT TIMES BUT I CANT SEEM TO MAINTAIN ANYMORE, AND TEARS I HAVE CRIED SO MUCH I THINK I MUST HAVE RAN OUT OF THEM.. IM BROKEN INTO PIECES AND FRIENDS THE FEW THAT I HAVE KEEP TELLING ME THAT I LOOK LIKE THE STUPID ONE.. BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR SAY ANYMORE..SEEMS LIKE I BEEN CUT OPEN AND THE WOMBS AND SCARS THAT I HAVE ARE TOO OPEN FOR ME TO COVER THEM UP WITH JUST A BANDAGE.. FROM CHILDHOOD TO WOMAN HOOD SEEMS LIKE I DESERVED EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME.. IM NOT SAYIN THAT YOU DESERVED TO DIE ON THE CROSS.. IM JUST NOT UNDERSTANDING ANYTHING ANYMORE, AND EVERYTIME I TRY TO UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS END UP BEING HURT. IM TIRED OF HURTING, I DONT WANT TO HURT ANYMORE.. WELL U HAVE BEEN HURT BEFORE SO YOU KNOW HOW PAIN FEELS. IT GETS TO THE POINT WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP.. BECAUSE NOW A DAYS JUST BEING STRONG DOES NOT SEEM TO BE ENOUGH FOR ME ANYMORE.. I KNOW IVE MADE MISTAKES IN THE PAST AND I MAKE MISTAKES NOW ONLY U KNOW HOW MANY MISTAKES I WLL MAKE IN THE FUTURE.. I JUST WANT TO ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME AND I HOPE THAT YOU WILL HEAR ME OUT.. I KNOW I GET MYSELF INTO THE STUPIDITY I GET INTO AND GO TO YOU TO GET ME OUT OF THE STUPIDNESS ALL THE TIME.. I REALLY HOPE U HEAR ME OUT BECAUSE THIS TIME IS NO DIFFERENT THAN THE PAST NOR THE PRESENT.. THIS TIME IS MORE THAN ME JUST CRYING OUT TO YOU FOR HELP MORE THAN ME PLEADING FOR A BLESSING AND ASKING YOU FOR A BEAUTIFUL MERCY UPON ME.. IF I DIDNT KNOW BEFORE I KNOW NOW MORE THAN EVER THAT I NEED YOU TO STAY WITH ME BY MY SIDE ***SIGH**
:*(
SOLSKY
reality
ts as simple as this at the end u make your own choices, people can warn you and give you all the advice in the world but its up to you to accept it or not.. but wat u have to remember is that you have to pay the Consequences at the end no one else does... u make mistakes just like everyone else in this world does because we werent born perfect.... imperfection is something we all have in common.. therefore we shouldnt criticize others no matter how much hurt a person has put us through its called forgive and forget dont hold grudges on anyone because God doesnt hold a grudge on us... live each moment as if it was your last every second you breath appreciate it because every second somebody in this world is dead.. so cherish each moment as if it was your last.. hate no one and love everyone. be yourself all the time.. dont put up a front so others can accept u.. you live for you and God so the sooner u realize the sooner you will realize everything will be alright..
*~ solsky*~
*~ solsky*~
becoming one
people are different
the world is different
as much as this world is supposed to be equal its not.
we all seem to fight for the samething and thats a dream, a dream of becoming somebody in life, we all want something accomplished. but what is it that we want ot accomplish? how can we accomplish anything when we go against eachother in everything. In most cases we go against our own. yet were supposed to be this big family, but we are so different from one another. words cant describe how different we are. eventhough we all want want to create this dream of accomplishment and were against eachother, maybe one day we will all come together despite the hate we have for one another, maybe we will wake up to reality and actually accomplish that dream of becoming one
the world is different
as much as this world is supposed to be equal its not.
we all seem to fight for the samething and thats a dream, a dream of becoming somebody in life, we all want something accomplished. but what is it that we want ot accomplish? how can we accomplish anything when we go against eachother in everything. In most cases we go against our own. yet were supposed to be this big family, but we are so different from one another. words cant describe how different we are. eventhough we all want want to create this dream of accomplishment and were against eachother, maybe one day we will all come together despite the hate we have for one another, maybe we will wake up to reality and actually accomplish that dream of becoming one
the eyes tell a story, if you look into them Share
look into my eyes what would you see?
you would see someone who's been through alot.
someone who's had a rough life.
you would see a person who has hopes and dreams she goes after.
look into my eyes you would see a fragile heart and a strong mind.
that no matter what i would'nt just give up.
you'd see someone who wants to be happy and make a change
look into my eyes and what would you see??
you would see everything i want to fulfill and goals i want to acheive.
you would see the inner me.
you would see someone who's been through alot.
someone who's had a rough life.
you would see a person who has hopes and dreams she goes after.
look into my eyes you would see a fragile heart and a strong mind.
that no matter what i would'nt just give up.
you'd see someone who wants to be happy and make a change
look into my eyes and what would you see??
you would see everything i want to fulfill and goals i want to acheive.
you would see the inner me.
just a little note
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